Imagine for a second that the Jesus that you conceive of is not the christ and the devil you conceive of is not Satan but jesus is the devil. Jesus was the devil to more people than he was the christ to. When he got started it was just a personality cult. I personally think that when he said he was adonai sabaoth he was saying not so much that he was the lord of the sabbath but the god of death, and when he said he was the Morning Star he was saying that he was lucifer herald of the light.
Everyday people ask us in one way or another if we are good people, which is stupid because there is no way to know if my experience of myself is going to be the same as their experience of me and in my past it is rarely the case. Still people meter your hesitation to say that you are good and if you say, “no, I am not good.” they cringe in horror. I have a saying, “it’s not the asshole in front of you that you have to worry about, it’s the dick behind you.” People that ask if you are a good person are idiots, because psychopaths are prepared for this question to slip past your threat filter. The person asking the question is to much of an idiot to realize they should come to a conclusion on the subject using their own resources and opinions, but humans are stupid and they make decisions stupidly. If somebody asks me if I am a good person or if I worship the lord I say, “no, I am an asshole.” When the truth of the matter is that I really like myself and I don’t want to have idiots for friends and I just disagree on who jesus actually was and what he was trying to communicate to future generations. He was a revolutionary and he wanted to overthrow the status quo, but when his peeps became the establishment his rhetoric was too inflammatory to remain uncorrupted so his light was attenuated and his message warped.
Today is august 8, 2013 as I am writing this, because of an epiphany I had today. I kicked a lot of light at the hot tub and I went deep into my trance states. I remained in trance almost all day. It happens sometimes. In this altered state I pondered where my new found abilities and powers were coming from and why they were increasing, especially of late. I realized that as my wisdom increases I find myself more and more attracted to the darkness and repelled by the sticky white light of false christianity. I don’t want to sit at the spiritual childrens table anymore, I want to eat steak with the adults, milk is for kids. Children need a happy, harmless, beautiful superman to save them from their fuck ups whether they learn their lessons or not, that is vanilla Jesus. What kind of god wants a troup of tittering, twitterpated, toddlers traipsing around tapping texts and testifying tastelessly?
If we assume that “god” is a tautology of “life” and “nature” and that we will only love it if it is good and pleasant as judged from our perspective this is not rational, this is deluded. Life is not only enjoyable and nature is anything but pleasant. We have edited our consideration set so that god cannot communicate anything but pleasantries to us or it is not divine. I call this the pleasantness fallacy, there is no way to tell an idiot that he is an idiot pleasantly. It is because he is an idiot that he doesn’t know that he is an idiot. In a state of nature such a one would be eaten or die a painful death as a tax for their stupidity, but in “civilized” society we keep lowering the bar so that stupider and stupider people can have a feeling of equality to people that are their betters, and we counter-incentivize evolution by punishing people for succeeding. Nature rewards the faster, stronger, more enduring, and the smarter with survival and many children. the weak take refuge in their strong arms and they serve happily because they know that it is not the strong and smart that are the cause of the bad, it is nature. We have created a haven for morons, grown children, an idiocracy. We are doing in america the same thing that was done in russia, “from those with greater ability to those with greater need.” It creates a disparate impact in favor of need. We are rewarding failure. Not to mention people are acquisitively mimetic and when they see a strategic behavior rewarded they copy it.
I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness to love god and hate the devil, but I converted to deism and my god became reason in man. I learned all of the cognitive biases, and the logical fallacies, I learned to debate, I learned the philosophies and the sciences and made myself a rational man, homo sapiens, a real human. It was at that point that all of the weird shit started happening. I became aware of orgone and spontaneously began being able to move it and heal and teach other people. I had insight and foresight, I could predict things that were about to happen. I was recently reminded that chockmah is wisdom beyond reason, and this was verified by learning that the grade of philosophicus is attained before that of the wizard or magus.
God is omnipotent, all powerful, that means that all will in the universe is his will and in the end only gods will is done. The word goes out from his mouth and doesn’t return to him until his will is done perfectly. So everything done in the universe is allowed to happen by god and leads up to his endgame which we will not know until the end. Furthermore, by that logic all worship will return to god, all worship is worship of god, or an approaching to the worshipping of god in his true form as he is. Would god, in whatever form he exists, not be offended if we only worshipped him as long as he did not teach us or punish us or express anger to us? Who is in charge of that relationship? We don’t grow to understand his plight or embrace his imperfection, but we sit in judgement of god. Would he not feel rejected? slighted?
Jesus said, “let your eye be single,” this is a tautology of yoga, practicing a unified perspective on reality. Advaita means unvitiated, unseparated. Yoga means to yoke or to make one. Your philosophy, your soul, is your world view and must pertain to everything, it must not be partial or biased but it must be a meritocracy, it must not create disparate impact. As long as i am operating on survival data, this is good, that is bad, I am averse, I am avoiding that which I don’t want which means i am operating on vitiated knowledge, an unsustainable, dualistic perspective on reality, seeing something that is one as two. Good and bad, god and the devil, life and death. Shiva is the god of death and he was the most neglected of the Indian trinity, the people that liked to party and have fun didn’t want to have their buzz harshed by thinking about death, wisdom, responsibility and such grave matters. So they would disrespect him by not setting a place for him at their table. He was uninvited.
I said to myself today in my heart, “I love lucifer” and I felt happy and loved and protected and understood like I have never felt in my life. I felt like I had come home and my father hugged me and told me he was proud of me. Why is Satan so much more generous than god? What if what we think of god is actually a facade, a test, to root out those that are unworthy, to see which will choose poorly and which will choose wisely. It makes me think of rumis quixotic rhymes.
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”
“Knock, And He’ll open the door
Vanish, And He’ll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He’ll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He’ll turn you into everything.”
“Ignore those that make you fearful and sad, that degrade you back towards disease and death.”
and that makes me in turn think of Nietzsche
“But the worst enemy you can meet will always be yourself; you lie in wait for yourself in caverns and forests. Lonely one, you are going the way to yourself! And your way goes past yourself, and past your seven devils! You will be a heretic to yourself and witch and soothsayer and fool and doubter and unholy one and villain. You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame: how could you become new, if you had not first become ashes?”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
, Thus Spoke Zarathustra
“Of all that is written, I love only what a person hath written with his blood. Write with blood, and thou wilt find that blood is spirit.
It is no easy task to understand unfamiliar blood; I hate the reading idlers.
He who knoweth the reader, doeth nothing more for the reader. Another century of readers–and spirit itself will stink.
Every one being allowed to learn to read, ruineth in the long run not only writing but also thinking.
Once spirit was God, then it became man, and now it even becometh populace.
He that writeth in blood and proverbs doth not want to be read, but learnt by heart.
In the mountains the shortest way is from peak to peak, but for that route thou must have long legs. Proverbs should be peaks, and those spoken to should be big and tall.
The atmosphere rare and pure, danger near and the spirit full of a joyful wickedness: thus are things well matched.
I want to have goblins about me, for I am courageous. The courage which scareth away ghosts, createth for itself goblins–it wanteth to laugh.”
― Friedrich Nietzsche
, Thus Spoke Zarathustra
After reading this essay I suggest you read all of Matthew 7 in the same spirit, but most importantly this verse:
True and False Disciples
21“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’23Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’