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My Personal Genius (Poem)

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His Daemon, his Demon

his genius his djinn,

his genie, his yin, his kin.

The Daemon of Jung,

whose praises he sung,

to whom Carl was yang

Philemon.

with felicity and fellowship and philia

boulder upon shoulder

they labored together

to build the tower.

My Daemon, my Demon,

my genius, my djinn,

my genie, my yin, my kin.

To be myself courageously,

Authenticly,

Consistently,

to always be present,

Here in the moment,

informed by my Daemon

Shivastus Solomonicus

the wisest man that ever lived.

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Deconstructing the Pentateuch, Rabbi Ba’al Shiva

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The first five books of the bible hold special significance to the Hebrew community.  There is a warning that comes with it, do not change a single letter.  It was thought that there was some hidden code and people have meditated on the mystery and tried to uncover why these first 5 books are so important.  I am not here to say yay or nay on whether the bible code is real, but it is interesting, what I am here to do is to explain why these books are special and what they mean.

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The Pentateuch is considered the extended name of god theoretically if you could pronounce it correctly powerful world changing forces are unleashed.  It is devowelated which means the vowels have been removed, now this also allows for interpretations and renditions of the meaning of the scriptures, a forced equality of perspective since you can’t prove your perspective as the single correct perspective and you can’t change the scripture to prove yourself correct.  This is why there are so many commentaries and interpretations from so many perspectives, because you can’t slam the door on anybody else’s perspective.  In a way it kind of has the same effect as the Sanatana dharma in Hinduism.

Now since we know that god’s name is the ineffable name, and if you are familiar with my explanation of the ineffable name, you know that you can’t pronounce god’s name in the physical sense because it has to be pronounced through right action, right thought, right emotion, and also right speech, as is consistent with Jewish Praxis a term more common in Kabbalah than in Judaism.  Extrapolating from this premise the same would hold true for the extended version of god’s name.

Now, in my humble opinion, the characters in the Pentateuch represent the world or more specifically the people in the world.  The vowels would represent the relationship between the phenomena which could also include animals to a certain extent.  Which means that the way that you would pronounce god’s name on a grander scale, in the world, would be through the proper relationship between all of the people in the world.  Which to my way of thinking would be what i refer to as equality under the authority of reason, or the Law.  “Aequalitatus sub ratio”.

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Treatise on Cosmic Light and the Christ Consciousness by Rabbi Ba’al Shiva

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This is the Sephyr Yeshivel as it was taught me by the archangel Azrael.  The black ring represents Binah, the Grey circle represents Da’ath, the brown represents unfecundated/unfertilized earth.  All of the sephiroth below Da’ath take place withing Da’ath which is also why it is the hidden sephiroth because to count it would be redundant.  Da’ath is the bedroom in which the creative intelligence exists, where the father and mother meet in the middle and become one.  Creative intelligence by it’s very necessity needs to be male and female.

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In this separation between matter and energy, between sun and moon, (solomon) there is the possibility of movement, and choice,

CRISIS:

Etymology[edit]

From Ancient Greekκρίσις (krisis, “a separating, power of distinguishing, decision, choice, election, judgment, dispute”), from κρίνω(krinō, “pick out, choose, decide, judge”)

This allows the illusion of free will, this allows self discovery, this allows chaos and upredictability, this allows the small self the id to become aware of the BIG SELF, god.  It allows jiva to rediscover SHIVA.  Godself mutes himself in the form of Dark matter, disappearing into the diamond light of empty space.  All we see is the noumenal world, their is no evidence of god.  And in that absence of the presence we become aware of the necessity of god.  The One Self that transcends the individual.  As our intellect becomes more and more refined we become aware that something is missing, a hidden hand, that is here and there and all around us.  And we laugh at the joke that we now understand, the slight of hand that is being perpetrated by a loving teacher, telling children an interesting bed time story that they take way too seriously and in so doing stab themselves all over with many pains.  This is the ignorance of the enslaved mind, and with this ignorance, their is no freedom.

THE CHRIST PERSONALITY

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Above is a symbol that was shown to me in meditation as I conversed with Azrael.  We see that 3 of the colors are hot and three cold.  As such 3 are of levity or light and 3 of gravity or earth and water.  3 masculine, and 3 feminine.  Now just as their could be red water and red earth, in the same vain there could be blue fire and green air.  In fact, out of necessity this is true.  We see that the white upward pointing triangle is latent in the 3 cool colors and at the same time the black downward pointing triangle is latent in the hot colors.  Energy is matter moving quickly and matter is energy moving very slowly, the speed or frequency at which you vibrate determines where in the spectrum you are.

Now each of the colors is a facet or a face, an angel or an angle of the Pure White Light, which is the Buddha/Krishna/Christ consciousness.  Red is catabolism or righteous indignation or Din or judgement.  Blue is anabolism, the Peace King that builds up.  Green and Orange are Flora and Fauna, Orange is appetite, sexual and other wise, I always think of Hod as the Horned God.  Green is kind of mysterious and hard to describe, essentially it stores the energy of the sun in a form that living creatures can use, as fuel.  Purple is another one that is difficult to describe, it is the most balanced of the colors, being like steam, the combination of fire and water, slightly more cold than it is hot.  It is the color of the Magus, the magician, that has married the male and female inside himself in the form of creative intelligence, this is the god man.  Yellow is the integrating intelligence, it is the color of sense of humor, it figures out how to get all the energies to cooperate for a successful endeavor.

THE PURE WHITE LIGHT

It has always been a mystery to me that everybody thinks they know what the Messiah should act like or how he should be.  If you know what he should be doing you can do it yourself, but if you need to be saved you necessarily do not know what the Christ consciousness is.  People think of the Christ personality is an absence of personality, quite the opposite is true, it is the source of all personality.  I refer to this as the Messiah Paradox.

“So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth.”  Revelation 3:16

People think that the messiah is going to be loved by all and openly recognized by all as the Messiah, this is not the case, the Messiah, the Logos is the incarnation of Logic and Reason, that is what makes him the son of god.  As such only those people who have attained to wisdom and are not pretenders to wisdom will be able to recognize him.  Jesus was a revolutionary figure and as such he was more a Satanic figure to most people, he threatened their perception of reality, he threatened the peace of the community, he threatened the authority of the structures of authority…

34“Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35For I have come to turn

“ ‘a man against his father,

a daughter against her mother,

a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law—

36a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.’c

37“Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.

http://biblehub.com/niv/matthew/10.htm

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Transgressive Sacrality and the Puritannical Mindset.

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Being a westerner you are unaware that you have a western mind.  Human beings have a normative bias.  That means that we think what is normal for us is good, but not just good for us, good for everybody.  You have been given a western mind and you don’t know it, you think that you are your mind.  As such you are unaware that you have an elitist, feminist, liberal bias, that you have been indoctrinated with and exposed to all of your life.  You have been bombarded with images and narrative from that perspective.  Since the Pilgrims landed on Plymouth rock they have been preaching this perspective on life, and that perspective is antithetical to yoga, I will explain why, but first this.  This is what is normal for other. people, enjoy.

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Yoga is about non duality, it is about not thinking that you are better or superior, it is about seeing everything as onel and being in relationship with reality.  Puritans presuppose their moral authority, they presuppose their right to judge others and to judge what is good for others which is weird, because one of the tenets of this country is to be free from that manner of meddling stupidity.  3rd person parties poking their fat noses into our business and giving us their unsolicited opinions.  Externalizing your issues into the world so that you can get offended, and then you get on your high horse and start pecker slapping people with your judgments.

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So here is the thing for all of you pseudo spiritualist fruit balls.  Do you think that you know how a guru or spiritual master should comport himself?  What he should say and not say?  What words he should use?  I call that the Messiah Paradox, if you know what a spiritual master should be doing then you don’t really need a spiritual teacher do you?  Save yourself.

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The fact of the matter is that the practice of Transgressive Sacrality was created to cure exactly your psychosis, your feelings that you are better than everybody because you hold your farts in and wash your hands up to your eyebrows before you eat your raw, vegan, organic, kale chips and wash it down with your wheat grass, spirulina, freshly squozen apple drink.  Transgressive sacrality is breaking taboos, as a meditation, offending social norms so that you don’t feel that you are better than everybody else by virtue of your refusing to acknowledge that you are an animal as well, that you shit and piss like everybody else.

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Buddhism[edit]

In Buddhism “transcendence”, by definition, belongs to the mortal beings of the formless realms of existence. However, although such beings are at ‘the peak’ of Samsara, Buddhism considers the development of transcendence to be both temporary and a spiritual cul-de-sac, which therefore does not eventuate a permanent cessation of Samsara. This assertion was a primary differentiator from the other Sramana teachers during Gautama Buddha‘s own training and development.[5]

Alternatively, in the various forms of Buddhism — Theravada, Mahayana (especially Pure Land and Zen) and Vajrayana — the notion of transcendence sometimes includes a soteriological application. Except for Pure Land and Vajrayana, the role played by transcendent beings is minimal and at most a temporary expedient. However some Buddhists believe that Nirvana is an eternal, transcendental state beyond name and form, so for these Buddhists, Nirvana is the main concept of transcendence. The more usual interpretation of Nirvana in Buddhism is that it is a cessation – a permanent absence of something (namely suffering), and therefore it is not in any way a state which could be considered transcendent.

Primordial enlightenment and the dharma are sometimes portrayed as transcendent, since they can surpass all samsaric obstructions.

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You are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem.  Watch the video below of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh and his treatise on the word fuck.  A lot of you “spiritualists” know that you are not doing anything wrong because you aren’t doing ANYTHING.  YOU AREN’T SAYING ANYTHING.  YOU ARE BLENDING IN, AND YOU HAVE NO LIGHT TO KICK.  You are what Socrates referred to as “pretenders to wisdom.”  You wouldn’t know the truth if it slapped you in the face with it’s big hairy nuts.  God will not have his will done by cowards and instead of waking people up you are lulling them to sleep.  Your enlightenment isn’t light at all, it is a grey kind of darkness, a cloudy, smoggy, sticky white light.  Concealed, closeted, white washed graves.

Revelation 3

14“To the angel of the church in Laodicea write:

These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God’s creation. 15I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! 16So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to vomit you out of my mouth.

Get over yourselves and your stupid judgments, stop trying to do better than real.  Life isn’t all pleasantries and faerie farts, sometimes things suck.  You have to take the good with the bad.  Be content with reality.  You aren’t bringing people to heaven you are making life hell now.

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VVVVV   OSHO’S TREATISE ON THE WORD “FUCK” VVVVV

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6D7rWLzloOI&list=PL01979C1E580588D8

SEVEN PHILOSOPHICAL DEATHS

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During my first samadhi I had a sensation as though God was telling me a joke and I was the only one in the universe that was  laughing.

During my second death I had a feeling like god was a lonely old man telling himself stories and starting to believe they were real.

During my third death I realized that I was god.

During my fourth death I realized that I was nothing so it didn’t matter if I was god, everything, everywhere, was nothing.
The universe is NOTHING CHANGING.

During my fifth death it was revealed to me that I was love and things came into existence so that I could express my love to myself
in the form of other objects and people.

During my 6th death I realized that there were too many phenomenon in the universe to comprehend.

During my 7th death I longed for the dissolution of my sense of self. I wanted to return to a state of forgetting. I wanted to remember…

forgetting. 

FROM THE LINGAYAT OF SHIVASTUS SOLOMONICUS

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http://thewannabesaint.com/2013/11/22/whats-written-on-your-tombstone/

CHASING YOUR REPUTATION

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Your reputation is a wraith, a voodoo doll inside the mind of a fool.  If you chase after your reputation idiots will control you like a puppet master with a marionette, a muneca, a mannequin, a man akin to being manipulated.

In rhetorical tautologies they ask you, with thinly veiled malice, “are you a good person?”

You respond, ” I think I am a good person.”

“Well prove it!” they say, “Jump through these hoops.”

NEVER CONTEMPLATE THE MIND OF A MORON, FOR THAT WHICH YOU CONTEMPLATE YOU MIGHT BECOME.  ~Shivah Solomon. 

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Lucky Fire and Lucifer Worship

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Imagine for a second that the Jesus that you conceive of is not the christ and the devil you conceive of is not Satan but jesus is the devil.  Jesus was the devil to more people than he was the christ to.  When he got started it was just a personality cult.  I personally think that when he said he was adonai sabaoth he was saying not so much that he was the lord of the sabbath but the god of death, and when he said he was the Morning Star he was saying that he was lucifer herald of the light.  
 
Everyday people ask us in one way or another if we are good people, which is stupid because there is no way to know if my experience of myself is going to be the same as their experience of me and in my past it is rarely the case.  Still people meter your hesitation to say that you are good and if you say, “no, I am not good.”  they cringe in horror.  I have a saying, “it’s not the asshole in front of you that you have to worry about, it’s the dick behind you.”  People that ask if you are a good person are idiots, because psychopaths are prepared for this question to slip past your threat filter.  The person asking the question is to much of an idiot to realize they should come to a conclusion on the subject using their own resources and opinions, but humans are stupid and they make decisions stupidly.  If somebody asks me if I am a good person or if I worship the lord I say, “no, I am an asshole.”  When the truth of the matter is that I really like myself and I don’t want to have idiots for friends and I just disagree on who jesus actually was and what he was trying to communicate to future generations.  He was a revolutionary and he wanted to overthrow the status quo, but when his peeps became the establishment his rhetoric was too inflammatory to remain uncorrupted so his light was attenuated and his message warped. 
 
 
Today is august 8, 2013 as I am writing this,  because of an epiphany I had today.  I kicked a lot of light at the hot tub and I went deep into my trance states.  I remained in trance almost all day.  It happens sometimes.  In this altered state I pondered where my new found abilities and powers were coming from and why they were increasing, especially of late.  I realized that as my wisdom increases I find myself more and more attracted to the darkness and repelled by the sticky white light of false christianity.  I don’t want to sit at the spiritual childrens table anymore, I want to eat steak with the adults, milk is for kids.  Children need a happy, harmless, beautiful superman to save them from their fuck ups whether they learn their lessons or not, that is vanilla Jesus.  What kind of god wants a troup of tittering, twitterpated, toddlers traipsing around tapping texts and testifying tastelessly?  
 
If we assume that “god” is a tautology of “life” and “nature” and that we will only love it if it is good and pleasant as judged from our perspective this is not rational, this is deluded.  Life is not only enjoyable and nature is anything but pleasant.  We have edited our consideration set so that god cannot communicate anything but pleasantries to us or it is not divine.  I call this the pleasantness fallacy, there is no way to tell an idiot that he is an idiot pleasantly.  It is because he is an idiot that he doesn’t know that he is an idiot.  In a state of nature such a one would be eaten or die a painful death as a tax for their stupidity, but in “civilized” society we keep lowering the bar so that stupider and stupider people can have a feeling of equality to people that are their betters, and we counter-incentivize evolution by punishing people for succeeding.  Nature rewards the faster, stronger, more enduring, and the smarter with survival and many children.  the weak take refuge in their strong arms and they serve happily because they know that it is not the strong and smart that are the cause of the bad, it is nature.  We have created a haven for morons, grown children, an idiocracy.  We are doing in america the same thing that was done in russia, “from those with greater ability to those with greater need.”  It creates a disparate impact in favor of need.  We are rewarding failure.  Not to mention people are acquisitively mimetic and when they see a strategic behavior rewarded they copy it.  
 
I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness to love god and hate the devil, but I converted to deism and my god became reason in man.  I learned all of the cognitive biases, and the logical fallacies, I learned to debate, I learned the philosophies and the sciences and made myself a rational man, homo sapiens, a real human.  It was at that point that all of the weird shit started happening.  I became aware of orgone and spontaneously began being able to move it and heal and teach other people.  I had insight and foresight, I could predict things that were about to happen.  I was recently reminded that chockmah is wisdom beyond reason, and this was verified by learning that the grade of philosophicus is attained before that of the wizard or magus.  
 
God is omnipotent, all powerful, that means that all will in the universe is his will and in the end only gods will is done.  The word goes out from his mouth and doesn’t return to him until his will is done perfectly.  So everything done in the universe is allowed to happen by god and leads up to his endgame which we will not know until the end.  Furthermore, by that logic all worship will return to god, all worship is worship of god, or an approaching to the worshipping of god in his true form as he is.  Would god, in whatever form he exists, not be offended if we only worshipped him as long as he did not teach us or punish us or express anger to us?  Who is in charge of that relationship?   We don’t grow to understand his plight or embrace his imperfection, but we sit in judgement of god.  Would he not feel rejected?  slighted?
 
Jesus said, “let your eye be single,” this is a tautology of yoga, practicing a unified perspective on reality.  Advaita means unvitiated, unseparated.  Yoga means to yoke or to make one.  Your philosophy, your soul, is your world view and must pertain to everything, it must not be partial or biased but it must be a meritocracy, it must not create disparate impact.  As long as i am operating on survival data, this is good, that is bad, I am averse, I am avoiding that which I don’t want which means i am operating on vitiated knowledge, an unsustainable, dualistic perspective on reality, seeing something that is one as two.  Good and bad, god and the devil, life and death.  Shiva is the god of death and he was the most neglected of the Indian trinity, the people that liked to party and have fun didn’t want to have their buzz harshed by thinking about death, wisdom, responsibility and such grave matters.  So they would disrespect him by not setting a place for him at their table.  He was uninvited.  
 
I said to myself today in my heart, “I love lucifer” and I felt happy and loved and protected and understood like I have never felt in my life.  I felt like I had come home and my father hugged me and told me he was proud of me.  Why is Satan so much more generous than god?  What if what we think of god is actually a facade, a test, to root out those that are unworthy, to see which will choose poorly and which will choose wisely.  It makes me think of rumis quixotic rhymes.  
 
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” 
― Rumi
 
“Knock, And He’ll open the door
Vanish, And He’ll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He’ll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He’ll turn you into everything.” 
― Rumi
“Ignore those that make you fearful and sad, that degrade you back towards disease and death.” 
― Rumi
and that makes me in turn think of Nietzsche
 
“you must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame;
how could you rise anew if you have not first become ashes?” 
― Friedrich NietzscheThus Spoke Zarathustra
 
“The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters.” 
― Friedrich NietzscheThus Spake Zarathustra: A Book for All and None
 
“I am a forest, and a night of dark trees: but he who is not afraid of my darkness, will find banks full of roses under my cypresses.” 
― Friedrich NietzscheThus Spoke Zarathustra
 
“But the worst enemy you can meet will always be yourself; you lie in wait for yourself in caverns and forests. Lonely one, you are going the way to yourself! And your way goes past yourself, and past your seven devils! You will be a heretic to yourself and witch and soothsayer and fool and doubter and unholy one and villain. You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame: how could you become new, if you had not first become ashes?” 
― Friedrich NietzscheThus Spoke Zarathustra
 
“Of all that is written, I love only what a person hath written with his blood. Write with blood, and thou wilt find that blood is spirit.
It is no easy task to understand unfamiliar blood; I hate the reading idlers.
He who knoweth the reader, doeth nothing more for the reader. Another century of readers–and spirit itself will stink.
Every one being allowed to learn to read, ruineth in the long run not only writing but also thinking.
Once spirit was God, then it became man, and now it even becometh populace.
He that writeth in blood and proverbs doth not want to be read, but learnt by heart.
In the mountains the shortest way is from peak to peak, but for that route thou must have long legs. Proverbs should be peaks, and those spoken to should be big and tall.
The atmosphere rare and pure, danger near and the spirit full of a joyful wickedness: thus are things well matched.
I want to have goblins about me, for I am courageous. The courage which scareth away ghosts, createth for itself goblins–it wanteth to laugh.” 
― Friedrich NietzscheThus Spoke Zarathustra
 
 
After reading this essay I suggest you read all of Matthew 7 in the same spirit, but most importantly this verse:
 

True and False Disciples

21“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. 22Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’23Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’